i knew it was gonna stink

My ring, the ring I think of as my future and a way for my hopes and dreams to be reality, today I left it at home. I think of it as my good luck charm so bodda boom badda bang it sucked! As the day went on more and more things happened to make it suck, there are moments when i just couldn't understand why my brain and soul were doing what they were doing. And so i just sit here and think... i think till my brain hurts...
So I am gonna go do yoga in India

california here

california, for ages it has been a place of hopes and dreams for millions of people who seek fame popularity etc... And with the bright sun and warm (non-humid) weather people can be outside almost year round without freezing their butts off! So many people have all these grand pre concieved ideas about cali and all it offers, yet to me it simply means my favorite few weeks during the summer. coming here for a few weeks every summer has been the way of life to me ever since i can remember. my california break always has the best compenents, like now i am sitting in the back of my aunt and uncle's van blogging on my phone while sharing an ipod with my big sister, this is what i call the life :) we go to gma and gpa's and there are family dinners, pool time, peaches, costco and walmart runs, tanning and so many more amazing memories :)) now as this summers adventures begin i need to stop blogging and join my sister who is lip synching to every song on her ipod, yup this is what i call california. :)

Four Short Days

This will be a fast post.... mainly i am saying how amazing camp was. I love coming home with the power and glory of God behind me, its a great feeling :) Now i am facing the fact that i have a bunch of friends (who have different values) that are now wanting to hang out and i dont know if i am strong enough to yet. Is that a sign that i am or that i am not??? Ahh... well four days till sunshine and happy days :) Yippie!! I can make it through!

who would have thought

well the last post was me trying to put my hurt into words and so today was a long day. i have felt sick to my stomach crying every few hours. just not feeling like there was any kind of hope. but today a light appeared! in the car i found out that the job training they would have to go through can be put off until september. meaning that i will see them when i come home. glory be is this a good start to what i thought was going to be a horrible rest of the summer...

July tears bring August fears :/

when someone you love, who is your best friend, who you would do anything for because you love them so much announces that they have to move (for job reasons which are totally understandable) it crushes your heart. But then you have to process that in one day you are leaving for a camp for a week and that during this said week this person and their spouse are moving out of your home and into another state. Causing me to have no clue when i will see them next... leaving one day to be had.... (*insert tears here) so now is when i say that I wish with every ounce of me that i could have just two more days, one day is not enough. They are starting new lives and jobs and cant be bothered with. But me I need her, she is my best friend and I have been spoiled by having her live at our house for the past four months..
This is when I wish i could split in two, i want to go to camp because it is an amazing experience and i reallly need it if i even want to think about making it through this next year, but the fact that i have to go therefor missing my last few moments with her, that makes it not even worth it. is it supposed to be a sign that this next year is going to be horrible if its already starting off with her leaving and me not even getting in a proper goodbye??
Why does this have to happen? Why to one that means to much to me... one that i love. :'(

the blonde mane

this is my first official post... it is rather AWESOME!! :D

so as I was sitting on the couch next to my nifty big sister (who is also blogging) and having an continuous belching contest with my other sister's husband, I was thinking what shall i write about?? then it came to me, well more like fell out of my head. I am talking about my hair! its huge!! I have longish thick blonde hair that the majority of the time is pulled back into a loose bun or a high ponytail. But the point I am trying to make about my hair is that it falls out, constantly! Anywhere in my house my family is always telling me that I am leaving my hair behind me. now i know everyone does this its part of the human body, traits, whatever you want to call it but my hair falls out A WHOLE STINKING LOT!! More than anyone else's in my family and it falls out multiple strands at a time, its great...

Well anyway so warning to anyone reading this i will have plenty of grammar and spelling errors, i may sound silly or immature with some of what I say, i will most likely write in run on sentences and not fully explain all of what I am trying to say... so sorry abut that! it happens a lot, my mind is constantly skipping and i dont always finish or fully explain all of what I am trying to say :)

SO... wrapping up my first official writing post, today (actually yesterday) was a great day! I laughed more than I have in a really long time, and it was all due to my sisters and Jordan(oldest sisters new hubby). I love having them all home :) Well I am making cinnamon pull apart (aka monkey bread) tonight for tomorrow's bfast! Yum!! And now I am off to hulu to kill my brain cells with pointless crap until i feel sleepy enough to go upstairs to bed...

goodnight world :]

-Lou